Unearthing the Love

This is me.  A single, attractive, smart, sport-loving, fun-loving, sincere, caring, easy-going, curious and adventurous 32 year-old woman.  I have been searching for love for the past 15 years.  Recently my boyfriend broke up with me... sooooooo once again I am searching for love, but this time around I have decided to look at life a little differently since my past patterns have been unsuccessful at attracting my holy grail - that man that will love me, want to grow with me and someday would like to get married and raise a family with me.

Instead of looking for love (what is it? lost?)  I am going to unearth it.  Because I believe that love,  is actually, all around... and the more I realize the small moments of love, unearthed, before my very eyes -  the more love I will attract and in turn the more love I will create.  It is the simple law of attraction (which we all know is not that simple - in theory maybe...)  

I went to a party tonight, many couples were there - some married, some engaged and others just dating... I felt lost and confused in moments of quiet - what do these girls have that I don't?  This way of thinking doesn't help me... it only hurts me - and it hurts alot.  So where can I unearth some love in this situation?  Love is in the hug my friend, Karen, text me when I sent her a message saying "I miss him."  The thing is I don't truly miss HIM- his person...  I miss the warm body lying next to me, I miss the arm around my shoulder, I miss smiling at him when he came home. 

 I am crying now because the hole this relationship left in my heart when it ended makes me feel empty and I am looking for ways to fill it lovingly.  If you know of loving ways to fill it please let me know.

This is me.  A 32 year-old, fun, attractive, smart woman who is scared to death she will never find that man who loves her and wants to grow with her - a man who will want to marry her and raise a loving family with her.